I'm In Love

Like madly in love. I am seriously crazy about this girl, it's like i was telling her today, she's totally captured me. I promise it's not just because her libido is as high as mine, lol. You could not have convinced me previously that one could still feel so loved in a long distance relationship. She does all these little things that just wow me. Sure she's poetic (beautifully so), but it's also about her timing. Recently I've thought to myself again, that I swear she's almost clairvoyant. We have this crazy connection and she feels things just before or while they're happening in my life that affect her, and I don't communicate that to her, but she comments on it almost unknowingly. It's crazy and has happened far too often to be mere coincidence.

Kay is without a doubt my soul mate. I am not an emotionally open person and do not easily express myself for various reasons. But when she calls I am apt to tell her I love her before she's even had time to answer how she's doing. She just feels like home to me, like I am where I'm supposed to be. She listens to me openly even when we disagree. We talk things out reasonably, and I respect her point of view on things and have learned to take her advice more seriously into account when pursuing something. She's intelligent and her wisdom shines through when most needed. Her strength of heart shows on the face of everything, but she's not afraid to let go with me and be completely vulnerable with her everything. When she tells me she's never been loved like this before, that makes my year, because that's my aim. Sometimes I wonder if she knows how deeply I feel for her, although I tell her as often as I can daily. I want her to feel valued and cherished. The beautiful thing is I too feel completely and totally loved, and she expresses herself so wonderfully. She's changed me in positive ways while I've learned what it's like to be in love for the first time and buffed my sharp edges. Things that I already knew were reiterated lovingly and put into different contexts. I was usually on guard and very defensive, with the ability to just cut someone out without qualm. Not before hearing them, but all the same, my heart and mind were totally closed after that. We keep communication wide open and as result share a transparency I almost resented as an invasion of my privacy in the past.


Enough of my rambling, lol. I am incredibly excited about my trip to see her and have already more than half packed my bags. :-D